Army. Or, what I have concluded to do for the next 10 months...hopefully

so. after a lot of time thinking and researching, i kind of have an idea of what I want to do.

i still want to join the army. this is a definite.

i'm going to try to finish high school. we shall see how that goes. at least work as hard as i can on school until i turn 18. after that, what happens is still up in the air.

college might be possible. but i def want to do ROTC. i might just join and deal with being at the lowest level. not totally sure yet.

i still want to get into politics, farther on down the road. it may be 20 years.

so yeah.

this could be summed up as: i don't know what i'm going to do, really. all i know is i'm going to do something. and aim for the Army. and when i'm closer to being 18, i'll figure it out more..hopefully.

and i'll be praying about it too. a lot.

Army?

i'm finally facing reality and realizing that my dreams are just that--dreams. they won't happen. i need to be realistic about my future. yea, being President would be awesome. but let's be realistic. it's not going to happen. same with other dreams. becoming a k-9 bloodhound SAR trainer, and paramedic, specializing in dealing with drugs. running for Congress. being in politics all my life.

that's why i'm seriously considering joining the U.S. Army.

i have reasons.

1. i want to serve my country.

2. i've dreamed about doing it for years--since i was like 5.

3. i want to prove that i can do it.

4. i want to show that you can be in the military and still be a lady.

5. i want to show that being a female and in the military is honorable.

6. i want to do something honorable with my life.

7. for the experience and discipline.
8. it's a good way to "rebel" without it being wrong or doing anything stupid.
9. it'll give me a good foundation for anything else in life.

but i'm not totally sure what to do now. i wanted to do Army ROTC while in college...but right now, it's looking like i won't be going to college. maybe not even finishing high school. i'd like to get my GED and join right now, but i'm not old enough. and that would have me entering at the lowest level of the Army, which really wouldn't be cool. so i'm kind of stuck.

i need to fail somewhere. i have this thing for being able to bounce back from anything pretty well. sometime it's not going to happen. it might as well happen with my schoolwork. with highschool. and i might as well show everyone i won't always meet their expectations. at least in joining the Army, some people will support it.

 i'm waiting for some replies from friends in the Army and Navy who would be able to give me some experienced advice. hopefully what they say will give me some more of an idea of what to do...

some of my friends fully support me. others are ok with it, although it's not what they would choose. family does not. but then again, nothing is ok with the family. so that doesn't really matter in what i decide.

why Army? it's basically the hardest physically, other than the Marines. it has the longest deployments. it's the biggest branch of the armed forces.

"you couldn't deal with all the yelling and being pushed around in the military." wanna see? "you'll be teased forever about being so short." nothing new. i can deal with it. "girls can't be in the military." i can.

growing up is hard. thinking through my future is hard. it's kind of not cool. 

these are just a few thoughts of mine on this. i might write more later. we shall see.